Dear Diary,
I haven't updated this website in forever now haha! There's a lot that has happened these past couple months
For one, I'm studying on my own. I'm going full-on Renaissance mode here. The other one is that I take cigarettes now, but I have my reasons. Everything I do usually has its reasons. And I know I can finish college hastily. I'm coming for you, Vince. It's just taking me a long time catching up to you.
Oh yeah, you don't know Vince. Well, Vince is this inspiring guy and I've always wanted to walk side by side with him. He's smart and charismatic and very knowledgeable, three things I'm not. You know where I'm going with this. He's like my mark of what it means to be successful. Being sophisticated and yet being able to laugh at yourself. An enigma. The very epitome of the harmonious clashes of things I don't think are possible without compromising your identity.
But that's my rose-tinted glasses and naivety showing, anyway.
I also admire this one girl. Let's call her Cry. BAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Anyways, Cry is a youtuber. She's also a great artist. Not as great as someone like Richard Powell or Lane Brown or Jaiden, but her style is what gives her art spark. People actually commission her. My competitiveness doesn't seem to be envious, but more healthy than what I'm used to. Maybe it's because she's my actual friend. Also because I know my YouTube channel flops because of the oversaturated market. Cry pierced through it with her own niche interests. Maybe I should do so as well. Actually, I'm planning on uploading soon after I complete college. That would take a couple years more, but that's still soon for me.
. . .
I'm trying to think of other people that I admire, but nothing pops up as significant as these two. I could say some bland answers like my parents or brother, but I don't actually think that would be honest. Teachers? Nah. Doctors? Nah. I don't admire anyone but these two apparently T_T